I did make up with my sister again. We're watching episodes of Sons of Anarchy on Netflix at her house. It's exciting. I daydream as I watch. I look back on times in my life where I was feeling confused, crazy, and alone. Maybe the loneliness had to do with people pushing my negative energy away. Or maybe I was keeping myself away. Self destruction is a confusing thing.
I'll never quite figure it out. I don't know if I want to. There's something safe and familiar about the fairy-tale land of denial. I can push my problems away simply by not thinking about them. It's a magical and wonderful place.
