Day 27
Today was the best day I've had in a long time. I spent it with my nephew and was able to keep up with him, even though I'm ready to pass out now at 7pm.
I took him to a Ninety-Nine restaurant in Plattsburgh where I ordered some veggie sides for under $10. Two orders of grilled asparagus and some steamed brocolli. It tasted amazing, even though I'm not supposed to eat heated food. Oh well.
It was a beautiful sunny day and the forecast predicts sunny and 70s all week with another storm coming next weekend.
Since it was a Sunday today I took my nephew to a church where the music was great and the energy was so positive. Churches like that used to annoy me because I was so miserable. But now I feel like I'm seeing the light, unlearning false Christianity, and feeling God's light inside me. It's like a fire in my belly, warm, emotional.
I was taught growing up that Christianity was about a relationship with God and NOT a feeling. I refute that teaching now. Hope, love, joy... these are all feelings that come with knowing God, and they are feelings we NEED.
I was able to worship God with my whole heart in this new church full of super joyful strangers. I kept my eyes closed as to not get distracted and when I looked down at my nephew during the service, he was clapping or raising his hands or jumping up and down every time I looked. I cried so many happy tears.
I wish I had grown up seeing the joy of the Lord exemplified in the lives of those around me but I just didn't. It feels good to possibly be breaking a generational curse of depression not only in my immediate family but in my generation. I feel so overwhelmingly grateful.
Day 28
It's not even hard to avoid any processed food anymore. In fact, you couldn't pay me to eat it.
I have no plans to stop using my juicer when my 30 days ends. I have unlimited access to locally grown produce now thanks to my local farmers co-op. In fact I'll go more hard-core with Dr. Schulze's program, upping the exercise and hot/cold showers, since it will be easier to do so now that the weather has warmed up and my energy has been reset.
The sun was bright and hot today, the first feel of summer in over 6 months. I drank my seaweed powder Supergreens drink mixed with fresh beet, greens, and apple juice. Then I walked about 10 miles. I picked and ate a purple violet flower as I left my front yard to walk, and instantly laughed at myself for doing so. When I reached the walking path, I took my sandals off for a little while to let my feet touch the earth, hugged a few trees, spoke to the mosquitoes and black flies and birds, did some stretching, napped on a large mossy rock, sang songs, and later sunbathed on a dock at the Natural History museum. The museum was closed and it's a Monday, so I was the only person walking along several acres of trails. I caught up with an old friend on the way home, and had a glass of water there. When I arrived back at my house, 6 hours had passed and I'd been outside all that time. My mother was alarmed to see my face.
"You've got a sunburn!" To which I replied, "Oh good!"
I tossed some asparagus, leeks and greens into the oven just to gently warm them and ate just a few bites before calling it a day and now headed to bed a little before 8:00. It only gets better from here, even though today was perfect.
Day 29
I slept 8-1, then 5-8. I've been praying during these times awake, since it feels so quiet and serene. I had a good cry over something that has bothered me for several months now, and believe I received the beginning some kind of emotional healing.
I want to be a natural healer for people, and start to write songs again. I've had melodies in my head for decades that never paired with the right words, and the words to one of these melodies started to emerge last night. The song will be called "On and on."
I wrote a poem last week, too. The last time I quit using thc I wrote a 50,000 word memoir, and cried most of the time. The words were pouring out of me like rain, much like what is beginning to happen again now.
I'm grateful for my dad, who taught me the importance of using the right words. And my mom for nurturing me. I'm very blessed to have the freedom with my time and my life that I do because of them.
God has allowed my life to unfold into a divine tapestry. I am starting to look back at it through new eyes. The gratitude is overwhelming.
I took my dog Gunner on a 6 mile walk today. We stopped at a park and lay on the grass together under a shady tree for a mid-day nap. It reached 81 degrees. Glorious.
I only juiced in the morning. Beets, greens, and apples. I mixed some Supergreens seaweed powder mix into my juice and it didn't taste as bad as mixing it with straight fruit juice. It definitely gave me a boost of energy, and now it's 8:30 pm and I'm ready to sleep as the sun goes down. Everything feels in alignment.
Day 30
I slept like a baby last night, was up for a couple hours to pray just before sunrise, and watched Daystar all morning. I love Andrew Wommack's teachings. He shows how God has given us the power to cure all sickness and disease if we simply speak out loud to the problem.
I'd like to celebrate the completion of 30 days of fasting with a slightly unhealthy meal that won't send me to the E.R. or have me in the bathroom all night. I'm craving Indian food: basmati rice and curried veggies and na'an bread. I love eating Indian food with my fingers too. It's such a flavor filled experience when flavor touches your tongue before a metal fork or spoon does. It's overwhelmingly sensory. The Indian spices are medicinal too, and for anyone that doesn't know that, just do a little research on Ayurvedic medicine. People in India don't get the diseases we do.
It's now evening and I went and had Indian food for dinner. I also treated myself to a zero gravity balancing massage and bought some solar patches. I went to a yoga class in Lake Placid and grabbed a smoothie at the health food store on my way. Indian food was the last highlight of the day before driving to my sister's house. She has been in and out of the hospital for over 2 months now and I've been teaching her things as I learn. She's doing the garlic and Naked juices. She stopped eating processed sugar as well. She said she felt like she turned a corner the other day and that "the darkness is gone."
I'll continue my health journey and try to give updates in the coming months. This next 30 days I'm calling Phase 2. I plan to step up my physical activity and read a book called The Molecules of Emotion. I planted 3 gardens between my parents' and sister's homes and also bought some organic sprouting seeds for growing my own sprouts in glass jars. My first batches didn't grow. Maybe because they were just seeds in our spice cabinet and possibly decades old.
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